So listen, there’s this space I’ve been sitting in lately, a mix of peace, pause, and pondering and the thought that keeps circling back is: I wish people knew me more. Not the me they used to know. Not the me they made up in their heads. But the version of me that exists right now… this upgraded version. This version that came with intentional tweaks, hard decisions, and a soft but firm boundary around what and who I give energy to.

Truth is, I’ve changed.

And I know we love to say that with pride “I’ve changed” but no one really talks about how lonely that process can feel sometimes. Like, when you outgrow conversations, connections, and even habits that once felt so familiar. When you look around and realize your interests don’t mirror the people around you anymore. When you’re no longer entertained by the same drama, no longer moved by certain opinions, and no longer eager to explain yourself to people who don’t even see you clearly to begin with.

I’ve realized that so many people have outdated versions of me saved in their minds. They think they know me but they don’t know the me who sits still now. The me who values early mornings, spiritual baths, silence, and slow sips of a warm beverage while journaling and researching. The me who prefers intentional interactions over endless availability. The me who’s more private with her process, more gentle with her energy, and more focused on her peace than ever before.

I used to be so accessible. Always responding. Always showing up. Always explaining. But now? I’ve become selective with access and not from a place of ego, but from a place of alignment. Because everybody doesn’t deserve to see your evolution up close. Sometimes, the best thing you can do for your spirit is protect your becoming.

This new version of me isn’t a performance it’s a return to my truth. And no, I’m not rushing to show it off or prove anything to anybody. But I do want to share more… in safe spaces of course. With kind-hearted people. With those who get it without me having to break it down to dust.

I don’t want to be misunderstood anymore, but I also won’t force people to understand me.

So yeah… if you’ve been feeling this too this tug between wanting to share and also wanting to protect your evolution… you’re not alone. Growth is real. And it deserves to be witnessed, but only by those who can see it without dimming it.

I’ve upgraded. And the access policy has been updated too.

And as it should be.
Xoxo, Drea